Friday, June 13, 2008
9:22 PM

I just feel tat i shldnt be born into this world,or come to this world AT ALL.

I didnt do well for my 'O' Levels,and it was myself whu chose to go to ITE and take Accounting. And i thought accouting was easy and yet i screwed it up myself. And now i cant get to a poly because my GPA is super duper lousy. Im wondering just what the heck im doing with my own life man. And now im working.. for like the one whole month.. and i like make super dumb mistakes during work. And i think this will be my last few days or so working HAHAHHA. Hope im sensitive or whatever but i can sense the BIG BOSS of diners' club doesnt like me in a sense cos sometimes whatever i do is STUPID. HAHA. -.-.Cos whatever he and angeline told or teaches me i one ear go in one ear come out. COME ON LAH. IM NOT A PERFECT PERSON LOR. And i like just start working at diners okay?Im still learning -.-. If a human doesnt make mistake then he/she is not a human already.

My dad keep scolding me to change ... esp my temper.. i know.. im trying.. you think i dont want to change meh?Actually some1 is there that can change but now i doesnt want to have any INTERACTION with her anymore. And .. 2 persons just disappeared in my life totally.. one person.. due to some reasons i cant be friend with her anymore.. right until now i still treat her as my good friend.. but she doesnt want me to treat her as good friend.. cos.. she feels that she has done me wrong in some ways. :(. As for the other person.. SURPRISING i saw her at keypoint for lunch few days back.. if that is the case .. which means she is working at beach road area.. initially i didnt see her at first .. it was because of her voice then i regconise is her.. i scare she saw me first bah .. i was busy searching for the stall to buy my food so i didnt sense her presence hhahahaha.

I dunno what to type already lah.

我真的觉得我是一个超级无敌失败的人.没有一样东西做的很好.我也觉得我不是一个很好的朋友,无缘无故伤害到她们我都不知道.我也觉得我是一个失败的球员,失败的学姐,失败的队友.感觉我活了整整20年,根本没有一项东西我做超级完美.如果有人能告诉我,我的好处在哪里..请告诉我好吗?我现在很不得把自己的右手废了,我就不用打羽球.更好,因为如果我的右手真的废了=世界末日.

So what i like badminton ? I dont consider myself a good player. And i also dont think my skills is that good. And i wonder how the hell can i be the so-callled best doubles in the team after my ex-ex captain and her partner left the team. HAHAHAHA. IT IS A LIE. MY SKILLS IS NOT TAT GOOD AT ALL.

If some of you out there hates/dislikes me or whatsoever,pls go ahead. I will not stop you. Cos im already sense that im hating myself. :(

Nth for me to miss or anithing at this moment. I just feel im a totally useless person. Humans do make mistake,i make mistake too. Maybe is a minor mistake, but to me is a BIG MISTAKE. ANd yet i can make the mistake OVER AND OVER AGAIN. ANd my working attitude = making mistakes = boss fire me = jobless. GOOD! HAHAHAHAHAH

Pls ignore me of my maddness.